Two Weeks Notice
Hello my loyal co-workers. I've been MIA from the blog scene for over a year and I dropped off the gram for about two months. So here is the low low with what has been happening since my last gram post on May 21.
I had mentioned in a gram story or live video that my depression had started to really take over and I was struggling. The medication I had been on since January seemed to have little to no effect and I made the smart decision to make an appointment with my Psychologist to get my meds adjusted. She started me on a new medication that involved a weekly increase of dosage until I got to the recommended dosage.
During all this, I managed to maintain my weight at 163 which was a gain from the 157 I had made it down to. But then things got worse. Even on my medications, I can have really rough bouts of situational depression that usually pass in a few days, but early July, I hit one that I couldn't break out of.
In June I noticed a posting for my dream job! I finally had the experience and connections to apply for it. While on vacation I got an e-mail from them requesting a phone interview. I made time on vacation to speak with them and scored an in-person interview the week after I got back from the beach.
I was so pumped for this interview, I went and bought a sharp new outfit. I even got to buy a size 12 dress pant which was a size down from what I had previously been. Everything was coming up Melissa! Long story short, I was one of three candidates, and after a three hour, five person interview, I thought I had totally landed the job. Two weeks pass, the date I would be notified passed. I knew at that point, things had not gone my way, but I needed confirmation. I e-mailed the hiring manager and several hours later got a really fluffy rejection e-mail. That for some reason sent me in to a huge spiral.
Maybe it was because I expected to get the job of my dreams. Maybe it was because I was so unhappy in my current job, and I hadn't seen it before and saw little to no way out. I cried for two days. I had no motivation to do anything. There were several days where I laid in the living room floor and stared at the ceiling. This lead to the resurgence of my binge eating and unhealthy food choices. You know Melissa is off the wagon if she is in the DQ drive-thru ordering chicken tenders with gravy. That is a 1,500 calorie bomb in one meal.
My poor husband you guys. He was the real MVP. He begrudgingly dealt with all my self deprecating humor and memes. He picked up the slack with the housework when I was too down to deal with it and he helped the kids understand what was going on with mommy.
Fast forward two months later and I am back on top. I start a new job with a local law firm on Monday, and I started WW last Monday. I plan to start my blog back up with WW tips, recipes, momma stuff, lifestyle stuff, etc... I don't want to put myself in a box! Looking forward to having you all back!
I had mentioned in a gram story or live video that my depression had started to really take over and I was struggling. The medication I had been on since January seemed to have little to no effect and I made the smart decision to make an appointment with my Psychologist to get my meds adjusted. She started me on a new medication that involved a weekly increase of dosage until I got to the recommended dosage.
In June I noticed a posting for my dream job! I finally had the experience and connections to apply for it. While on vacation I got an e-mail from them requesting a phone interview. I made time on vacation to speak with them and scored an in-person interview the week after I got back from the beach.
I was so pumped for this interview, I went and bought a sharp new outfit. I even got to buy a size 12 dress pant which was a size down from what I had previously been. Everything was coming up Melissa! Long story short, I was one of three candidates, and after a three hour, five person interview, I thought I had totally landed the job. Two weeks pass, the date I would be notified passed. I knew at that point, things had not gone my way, but I needed confirmation. I e-mailed the hiring manager and several hours later got a really fluffy rejection e-mail. That for some reason sent me in to a huge spiral.
Maybe it was because I expected to get the job of my dreams. Maybe it was because I was so unhappy in my current job, and I hadn't seen it before and saw little to no way out. I cried for two days. I had no motivation to do anything. There were several days where I laid in the living room floor and stared at the ceiling. This lead to the resurgence of my binge eating and unhealthy food choices. You know Melissa is off the wagon if she is in the DQ drive-thru ordering chicken tenders with gravy. That is a 1,500 calorie bomb in one meal.
My poor husband you guys. He was the real MVP. He begrudgingly dealt with all my self deprecating humor and memes. He picked up the slack with the housework when I was too down to deal with it and he helped the kids understand what was going on with mommy.
Fast forward two months later and I am back on top. I start a new job with a local law firm on Monday, and I started WW last Monday. I plan to start my blog back up with WW tips, recipes, momma stuff, lifestyle stuff, etc... I don't want to put myself in a box! Looking forward to having you all back!
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